Stephanie sent me the most appropriate and appreciated gift this pregnant Mama could get right now!

With how sick I’ve been feeling you better believe I’ll be diving into these today.

Thank you, Stephanie for the thoughtful surprise. And the card was just so sweet. You’re such a dear person.

What do you want this time? I hope you have a girl. You need to have a girl. God help you if you have another boy. You need a sweet little girl to spoil and dress up.

I have to admit that my husband and I both preferred a girl with this pregnancy up until a few days ago. I then had a change of heart. I honestly don’t care what the sex of the baby is as long as it’s healthy and full term.

I don’t know what triggered the change of heart…maybe I had time to digest this pregnancy and to realize it really never mattered to me what the sex was. I simply was thrilled to add to our beautiful family…add a healthy full term baby.

I didn’t read that pregnancy stick and immediately say “Oh, finally my chance for a girl”. I thought “we’re going to grow our beautiful family by one more member” I felt joy, shock (unexpected) and excitement. I voiced my desire for a healthy baby, a beautiful soul entrusted to me.

I’ve said that with all my pregnancies. As do most pregnant woman. Sometimes I wonder if we really think about what that truly means. Are we saying that because that is what’s expected of a Mother to say?

I know that sometimes that answers rolls off my tongue without much of a second thought. Even though I mean it I don’t often sit and really ponder how powerful that statement really is.

I was reading about Heather and the loss of her beautiful son only three weeks from being born and I’m fully awakened to how powerful it is to wish that. In the blink of an eye something can happen to that boy or girl growing and living inside of you.

Caring about the sex of the baby is so trivial when you put everything into perspective. I’ll be so blessed to receive another beautiful gift from God in the boy variety or the girl variety. Blessed to hold a healthy full term baby. Blessed and walking around in a cloud of bliss to welcome either a Quinn or an Adalyn.

My heart bleeds for Heather and her family. What they must be going through today as they induce labor to deliver their sweet little Sawyer who is already waiting for them in Heaven.

So, you may ask me “what sex baby do you want this time” and my answer will be “whatever the sex of this baby it’ll be a blessing and welcomed addition to our family”

Please pray for Heather and her family today.

One long, long day.

One worn out Mama.

Two little boys whose whole world is their Mama.

A day that didn’t end until past 11pm.

As soon as I thought I was about to lose it (my emotions) Nicky called me into his room one last time.

As I sighed and walked into the room for the uptenth time he said “I love you Mommy. Thank you for taking care of me.”

Awww, just what I needed.

Morning sickness has turned into all day sickness.

Exhaustion even when I’m simply sitting has taken over.

Thirsty for ice cold water with ice cubes and lemon…all of the time.

Yep, I’m pregnant. :–)

My Granny was one of the most special people I ever had the pleasure and honor of knowing.

Spending time with her was sweet and pure. Her love for us was true. Her undying love for her husband, who had passed away many years before she did was beautiful. She never dated again, never remarried…always pined for his love.

Her faith in God was virtually unmatched. I clearly remember her expressing her readiness to “go home and be with Jesus” several times.

It never made me feel sad. It was the opposite. I felt warm inside knowing she would one day be dancing in Heaven. And it now brings me peace knowing one day I’ll be with her, when it’s my time.

There was something so safe about being in her presence…and fun! We never watched TV with her. We played games like Hide The Thimble (for hours), card games, board games and riding the city bus to the local mall and sweet innocent moments where she was truly engaged with us.

I could go on and on about this woman. Everyone she met loved her. She was that special. I’ve never known another like her and doubt I ever will. (This is our last photo together before she passed away in 2002)

I knew when we discovered I was pregnant for the third time that this child be named after her. That I would honor and remember my Granny in this special way.

—> So, if the child is a boy we’ll be naming him Quinn Sterling (my Granny’s maiden name was Sterling) and if it’s a girl she’ll be Adalyn Violet (Violet was her first name).

I wish I could have seen my kids with her. I wish I could have had more years with her. I wish I would have spent more time with her in her last years on earth. But I know she sees me and my kids, will be with us again and loves me just as much now as she did on earth.